"..late night..come home..work sucks..i know.."

the time now shows that its already 3am. hmm..yes yes..i know..i should be sleeping by now since i got class which starts at 8am tomorrow..or should i say later?..haha..

so i've been working a lot lately..(harap2 gaji bulan ni banyak..haha!) even on today! im refearing to monday by the way..after school straight to work from 5-12. reached home around 10 minutes before 1am..then just remembered that i had to do a lil "script" for my dear about an anti-drug compertition thingy..yarh so currently finished doing all that..hope she likes it..or rather her teacher in charge.

so here i am blogging with my baggy eyes that only had an hour and a half of sleep last night..picked up my dear from her home & went to school together. but before that went to mcdonals to buy for us breakfast. hehe..she looked at me like as though im weird by buying her breakfast early in the morning & showing up late at the bus stop..hehe..so we ate in the bus 22 to tampines interchange & meet up amy there. seriously with work & all, it already seems that im not spending a lot of time with her..hmm..tapi bagoss...ni kirekan practice for the future when im going to NS in 2 years time..i think..

..bla bla bla, went to class looking all sloopy & sleepy with slacked hair without any wax on it. then i realised that todays our class photo taking! urghh! and my hair looks like shit! but takpe..ni name nye relek..im really lazy to comb..sikat punyer sikat lawa2 pon in the end beserabai gak..soo never mind lah..

..hmm..i think that about it that i can write in for now..cuz i REALLY need to get some sleep since my class starts soon..damn it!

-Berambus... @-2:09 AM

working madness

~yawwnn..its 9.20am & im already in the school's MLC..my dear is beside me doing her assignment..sighh..im tired..slept at around 2+ last night..i would have be sleeping earlier if i had reach home earlier from work..missed the last bus at tamp & i have to walk all the way back home..whoaa liau..mane dengan cake byk2 la, snapple dlm beg la, buku skola la..my legs were killing me..

..so work was ok..learning doing the casher..absorbing it slowly..sighh..im such a slow learner..anyways, yesterday most of the staff & assistant manager told me about haziq's attitude..which surprised me cuz i i din't expect him to be behaving that way..ted was telling me that he talked too much & but know nothing inside..in other words, "macam paham"..so ted asked me to talk him about this before he does..if he does then it wont be nice to him..now im stressing myself of what to talk to him about..its VERY hard to take care & concern of other peoples feelings..cuz you might not know when they're hurt..sumthing sumthing..

lemme see what else i can say...basically im just tired..thats all..wonder how long will i last in this working thingy & the other balance that im having..

-Berambus... @-9:24 AM

the 2 tickets to ant bully

the food that we ate

chip & dale to my dearest

me & my dearest with chip & dale

all the stuff that i bought for her

ahh..ni ape hal lak nak act cute..

-Berambus... @-10:18 PM

the 5th wonderful month

yesterday was really wonderful..i know that its our 5 months & i just got paid last monday & wanted to give some surprises for my dear..went to school in the morning & dint have any opportunity to get out of the school & buy some of the stuff that i had planned in mind for quite some time..then i got a call from home that somethin-somethin is going on & had to go back home for a while..told her that i had to go home & can't see during break time..she sounds very upset..hmmm..so anyway, after settled things at home went to century square & bought for her small version of chip & dale soft toys..then went to golden village at TM & bought 2 tickets to ant bully at 4.25pm..then went to pizza hut & ask if they could reserve a table for a couple..but sadly, they can only reserve for 4 or more people..but never mind, thats ok..right after that went to a magazine store & bought this month's addition of cleo magazine..right after that went rushed back to school just before 1pm just to cheer her up..

..arrived at school & saw amy & ah siang (did i get her name right?) with my dear at forum..she dosent look too happy..then both amy & ah siang were like "..ok we shall leave you guys alone now.." so i stood infront of her put up my hand & said "..tak salam dose taau.." so bla bla bla..said sorry to her that i can't spend time with her during break & sat down beside her & said, "..i got something for you.." took out my wallet & showed the tickets to her..she was very VERY surprised & hugged me..yes, yes i know. "...aawwwwwww..." so she hugged me so tight that hides her face on my sholder right after i told her that this is just 1 of the 5 surprises that i got for her. then i felt that as if tears went rolling down..and it did..not cuz of sadness, but tears of joy..maybe i over did my surprise..hmm..din't really made her cry..she asks why 5? i told her, "..5 months maah..5 surprises just for my dear.." and hugs me tighter..then i sent her back to class & wait for it to end.

while waiting, found bashir & farouk at noods..so chilled there for a while while waiting for time to fly..then saw pel & talked to him about dikir barat that would be reopening in school very soon..with fid as our instructor..hmm..wonder how his teaching methods will be like..so then accidentally bumped into mr andrew, the guy incharge of CEMTA (Center sumthing Music sumthing & Arts)..finally after a week of searching for him..talked to him that we wanted to reopen back dikir at our school with instructor & it was already been approved..woohoo! can't wait..really happy that i finally got to be a part of dikir barat after so long..so we all sat down & talked about this till my dear had finish her class..

..then went to TM & watched ant bully..very interesting show..wish i can be an ant..hehe! then after that went to the 2nd surprise..purposely walked pass pizza hut..was try to make her think that we were only passing by..then pulled her right infront of it..hehehe..she was shocked..i think..we ordered the cheesy bites pizza, garlic bread, chicken drumlets..well u should know the rest of the pizza stuff that usually people eat there..after taking our order, i asked her to close her eyes..then put dale on her dinner plate..stood right beside her wispered in her ears & asked her to open..she was really surprised..hehe..then she asked me to close my eyes cuz she got something for me..and when i opened them, there's this red envelope with my name on it..i know it took her alot of effort of making the card..after i read it, i felt like...hmm..errrmmm..k nothing..moving on, we ate our dinner together for the 1st time..sighh..so wonderful..

..after finishing everything & while waiting for the bill, yam was playing with dale..as if he was walking here & there around the table..i asked her to do it again..so she did..as her hand which was on dale gets closer to me, i took out chip & said helloo..she was again surprised..

..after that we went to some of the converse & kappa discount thingy at the 1st level..i was thinking of buying the kappa shirt that i saw the other time..but it wasn't there any more..so bought an another design instead..& i bought for yam a...ermm..an everlast sports bra..hehe..then took the bus send her back home..in the bus, i asked her to close her eyes, for the last time, & put the cleo magazine on her bag which was on her lap..she hugged me & all..hehe...

..sighhh..its such a wonderful, wonderful 5th month..well, i guess thats just about all..oh yarh..& there's some pics of yesterdays event..till next time then..

.:.never before i have done this to anyone before..your the 1st..im glad that i found you..cuz there's certainly nobody like you.:.

-Berambus... @-10:11 PM

gets me so down..down..down..down..

..family..the only place where a home can be complete with..where you can turn, talk & share with someone..the only place to have shelter, rest, safe & warm..its where you know you would get more love & respect anywhere else..

..yes that's true..

..but what if its the other way round?? where home is a place where you don't normally sit down & talk out what's really in your heart..its where you are like being caged in & can't go out & enjoy life to the fullest..

..as an adult, think you can talk it out with the head of the family why things are being treated differently when you yourself know that the things that are happening to you in the house are not being treated fairly?

..as a child, do you respect or afraid of the man in the house?

respect the man of the house: respect for being the man of the house, share things with him, sit & talk things out when you feel that things are not right or unfair. and asking questions of "why" and get things sort out immediately..

afraid of the man of the house: avoid talking & keeping everything to yourself cuz you don't see any point of talking & afraid of the man thinking that you're being rude to him, stressing yourself at home & keep on asking youself "why" and then things won't be sort out until..forever..

which do you prefer??

..and as the man of the house, do you want your child to respect or afraid of you?

..think about it..cuz i already did..

-Berambus... @-8:18 PM