end of the holiday peeps

hmm..finally can find the time to update my bloggie..sut now im here, i dunno what to write..cuz i think theres just so many stuff happened since the last i wrote in..now lemme see if i can still remember..

..ok so lets start from last friday: thaught that i could visit her at work during her 2nd break..but some how i over slept & ended up dint get to see her at all on that day..cuz her break was only 30 mins & i dint have much time..so ended up at bugis & waited for 3 of my cousins to come by..cuz we were goin for sheesha at arab street..yeah..sheesha lagi..so while waiting for them, called my dear till her break ends..kesian die..keje, keje..sampai penat seyy tgk die keja kan duit..sighh..wish i had a job & get loads of money..then she wouldn't have to work so hard.."money makes the world go round, world go round, world go round..money makes the world go round, my friend lady" reconize the song? kinda catchy dont u think so? haha..changed the lyrics just a bit..so anyways, waited for my 3 cousins, bobo, kak wani & kak aisyah to arrive..listening 2 mp3..i was shocked to see bo's hair..cuz it just dosent fits with his face..he straights his hair!! erk..not rebonding it..but with wella hair straighting cream i guess..yeah..dah nampak sah muke boyan habis..da tinggi kering..wakakakaaa...can just imagine him in the middle of the woods with no clothes but wearing leave underwear & holding a spear in his hands..WAHAHAHAAA!!....mayn im so bad..hehe..well, what the heck..we only live life once (if u know what i mean)..kak wani got her hair cut..short..hmm..ok lah..it some how suits her although its short..cuz she knows how to style it..& kak aisyah..ermm..not much to say cuz she was wearin her tudung...yeah..so we went to al-majlis & had our sheesha there..apple flavour..i dont know why they picked that flavour..so took some crazy photo shots with bo's camera phone sony ericssion k700i..bodo btl..ade je bende baru..then he bought a PSP white version..double bodoh..keje sebagai pebancur kopi pon bole jadi kaye eh?..hmm..yarh so i dont have the pictures with me now..thin i'll update the wacky pictures later..so then went around bugis, then raffels place & slacked at star bucks..kak wani applied a job there..dpt air free! hehe..ade lahh..then went back to bo's place & overnight there..sadly my hp batt was flat & i cant call or msg my larling that much till i get home the next day..so i just chilled around..playied his PS2 games the next morning till afternoon..then got out of the house together when bo's off to work..

so went back home & recieved alot of messages & missed calls when i charged the phone..so on that saturday, 22nd april, it was my sis 20th b'day..yeayy...da tuaa..haha..no longer a teenager..sighh..see how time flies so fast..

then on sunday went out with amy, zaaq, haziq & khairul abdillah..brape byk abdillah aku kenal daah...so our meeting point was at orchard mrt..then went around town..then i got to visit my larliing!! hehe..only for an hour..hmm..so chilled at mcdonals during her break..chit-chat laugh-laugh, its already time for her to go back..yarh...so send her back up together with the rest..then went to esplanade..chill..cam biase..

i got to see my dear again on monday..cuz shes not workin & she wanted to go to the library at toa payoh..or rather i kinda "forced" her to go out..hehe..it just makes me happy to see her..so nothin much happened at library..just read some magazine to burn time..then when its time to go back, it was raining very heavily..so yeah..went around toa payoh..looking for new nokia phones & stuffs..she was noty when we're in the bus heading back..noty2..haha..so i send her back before dawn..then she told me to wait cuz shes goin out again to the NTUC buying nuggets for her mum..so yeah..went shopping at NTUC together again for the 2nd time..hehe..then as we were walkin, we saw this hersey's chocolate syrup..hehe..so both of our thaughts were somewhere..cant tell u guys where! hahaha..

dint go anywhere yesterday...just sitting around at home..doing nothing much..called her when shes having her break at work..so bla bla bla..watch tv the whole day..bla bla bla..updated my orange book..haha..bla bla bla..called her again when shes back at home..did something for the very 1st time..she heard me..& it was wonderful..seriously no words can explain..hehehehee..i think i had a read good night sleep last night..heh..

so woke up today & i don't know why..but im feeling like smiling..yeah..weird..haha..so for today i dont know if we wanted to meet or something..cuz she said that she want to go back to skool but not confirm yet..if she does then i'll be going there with her..then send her back & then sleep over bo's house again..then go to sentosa for a cousins chalet & be back home by friday i think..now i gotta find me $20 to pay bobo..hmm..i know my dad dont trust me on going to this trip..

i guess thats about it..now i gotta pay a visit to mr toilet bowl again for the 3rd time..SAKIT PERUT!..YARGHH!!...

.:.your the 1st..the only words to expalin you is "unexplainable"..i love u with all my heart.:.

-Berambus... @-11:43 AM

let the past be the past

woohoo! changed my skin! all thanks to my sis...again...& its orange mixed with black..heh..i know that someone likes orange..hehe..a new song..hmm..dont know if u guys can hear the song..ouhh what the hell..heh..well woohoo for that..if u guys havent notice theres a picture at the background of my entry post..look more closely & u can see me and..hehehee..so to my sis, thanks ah eh...

yesterday went out with yam, zaaq, fazli, liza, amy, haziq & their little brother yan. met up at mc cafe opposite parkway at 1pm..liza planned to go for lilyputt some where at around east coast..and from parkway walked all the way to east coast is really far! feels like we're walking forever to get there. and when we got there, i was kinda dissapointed cuz the place was closed for little primary skool kids to play from 1.30-5.30..darn it..so we walked all the way to parkway again & went to the hawker center to have our lunch..after that with nothing else to do, went to parkway prade..hmm..its been a few years since i've stepped foot in there...everything looks so different now..then went to the e-zone arcade..kinda boring cuz now its nothing much there..not like when i was a kid..begged my dad to go to the arcade & wanted to play the terminator shooting game..hehe..but usually before i could say anything, my dad would always say "no arcade eh.." but i had my ways of persuade him back then..bahahaaa..

spend a couple of hours in there playing some games..then went back to the lilyputt place..yarh...walked all the way back..hayoo..when we arrived all of our faces was really tired from walking..heh..lucky the air-con in that place is cooling. only liza, zaaq, amy & haziq palyed the game..since yam, fazli & i dint have enough money to play, we just watched them play..its kinda fun watching them play..laughing at them on how they hit the ball & where it ends up...haha..oh yarh, & sambil2 tu kite jage si yan kecik tu..kalau tak lari sane, lari sini..alah..budak kecik..mesti ah..

yam had to go back early so i send my larling back home..yarh..reached home at around 10pm i guess..

sorry dear..cant talk long on the phone cuz my dad was staring at me..hehe..

so today..hmm..my sis called me & told me that she saw an ad on the straits times..asked me to give a call since she knows that i dont have anything better to do & i dont have any cash..yarh so i did called..its a charity event for this coming good friday..mintak donation..takpe laa..at least dapat gak duit..

so later on i'll be fetching my larling back from work..dapat jumpe lagi..hehehee..so i think thats all i can think of..so see ya..

.:.i know that you are reading this..

i know that something you did in the past is bothering you now..

and by telling me you're scared that it would spoil of what we're having now..

dont be scared of sharing it with me cuz i will be there for you & we will work it out together..

take your time..its your choice..im not forcing you at all..

let the past be the past..nothing in the past that you did could spoil what we have now..

i dont care what you did then..

what ever you did then,

i still love you now, everyday & forever.:.

-Berambus... @-3:01 PM

..ohh..baru nak holiday yer?..

..well, glad to say that everything is alright between me & my bro..hes alright, im alright..so lets just forget about the past & pretend that it never happened..

so lemme see..lets start from last wednesday..hmm..not much happened..dint go to skool..so spend most of the time doing nothing at home..then got out of the house at around 6pm..thaught i could fetch my devil from work since she said that shes having morining shift on that day..but instead the time expended all the way to full shift! mak ah..but nevermind..at least i got a chance to get out of the house & see & talked to her for a while..and also got a chane to play x-box 360 there too..i think i was playin burn out 3..the graphic is really good..much more better then the previous version..now i think people around are just waiting for the arrival of playstation 3..so anyways, kesian die kene keje penat2..so yarh..dint went back straight after that..went to mcdonals & had my dinner there alone..then after that went back to tampines..my sis told me to meet her at kampung chai chee with fid..she told me that her slippers was broken?? da sah kaki gajah..huahuahuahuaaa! i asked her how can a slipper got like that..so she told me when fid was picking her up from work it was raining very heavily..so they wanted to run to the bus stop..so they were like "okok...ready..1..2..3!" and ran to the bus stop. half way there the slipper got slippery & it got broken..and she was shouting "u slippa i putus!" fid was pulling her to the bus stop and said "cepat2! lagi sikit je!" bahahahaa..bodoh..dah cam dua insan badode kat tengah2 jalan bile time hujan lebat..huahua! kalau sebelah putus takpe..ni due2..nyahahaha!

so fid actually knows about me & her..and i asked him how did he knows about it? he told me that my sis told me..then my sis was sayin lyk "taak! die bace kau nyer message kat handphone, msn history message kat computer & gamba2 kau kat computer gak.." rabaks..then fid was blaming on my sis the she blames on him on & on bla bla bla for about 15 minutes then he gave me that advice that he wanted to give..which im not putting down here..kaau..fid siak bagi aku advice..then we went back taking cab..since my sis had to go back home shoeless..bahahaha..

so then on thursday went to class at 1pm...tu pon terlambat sikit..heh..in class bla bla bla..doing some microcontroller tech stuff..bla bla bla..then went to cafe with bashir & waited for farouk & zaaq..since my class got realised earlier then them..then took the train at simei..laughed alot in the train..hmm..i think most of the noise comes from us..huahuahuaa...then got off at raffels place & took the train to orchard..cuz i wanna fetch my larling devil..hehehehee..she wears a black skirt..kaau...pakai skirt..haha..when we got outside bumped into yan & bobo's gf syaza..yikes! chatted for a while..darn..then went around to some book store since her bro asked her to look for some book..about al capone i think?..hmm..yarh..then i think i saw my cousin & her husband too..asked her to waked quickly..we must not be seen! yet..hehe..yarh so cut the story short, i send her back home..got off the bus & she took me to the park thats around her house & eh-hem...u kids cant know the rest..bahahahaa..cuz it cant be shared!

yesterday woke up at 8.45am..straight away jumped out of the bed head straight for the toilet..cuz i was having another javascript test which starts at 9! yarghh! rushed my way to skool & arrived at around 10+ i think..hehe..cant really do the debugging..firdaus helped me alot..phew..bashir dint came for the test..again..mangkok betol ah..so i finished the test at around 11..yarh & its the last day of skool!! wee! 3 weeks aje..lerr..at least sumthing..so anyways, waited for zaaq & farouk..then we went to amy's house..haha..every friday routine i guess..amy got a kitten! wee! very cute..hehehehehe...lari sane lari sini..mintak kene gigit! huahua..so my dear got an off day & comes at around 3..i was eating when i heard the door knocking..i knew it was her..when the door opened, i just couldn't stop smiling..i dont know why..maybe just feeling happy & glad to see her i guess..hehe..so watched 'baik punya cilok'..yam's vcd..really good show..

so yarh..cut the story short again, when sending her back home we bumped into her bro..in my head i was like "okok..nak salam ke tak eh? kalau die hulurkan tangan die salam je.." but he dint..he got this one of a kind face..like "i dont like you" kind of face..hmm..izzit just me? or do some people just hates me when they see me for the 1st time? i dont know..i got that alot of times..hmm..

here i am at home on a saturday..bored..going out later..meeting zaaq & the rest at esplanade..lepak2 cam biase..hmm..i dont know why is it really hard for me to sit at home..too boring i guess? k i think thats all folks..till next time i guess..

.:.you're so very naughty..you're making me more naughtire..you're eyes are so mesmerizing..you're making me look more deeply into you're eyes..i know you love me..and i love you even more..even with the difference between us..i don't care..what's yours is mine..what's mine is yours..you are mine & i am yours..i'm dangerously in love with you.:.

-Berambus... @-3:30 PM

"With a Friend Like That, Who Needs Enemies?"

..ayte so lets start my day from the top..

..woke up late today..class starts at 10am but i woke up at 10am..haha..my mum called me that she was suppose to bring sumthing to work & she forgotten about it & asked for my help to send the papers to her work place at raffels..then i said ok..anak mane tak nak tolong mak sendiri kan? so later on got a message from "a brother" askin me where am i & to bring the smoke free appointment session for the 2nd visit later in the afternoon..so i replied back to him that im at home..then he replied back that hes also at home & he asked if wanna meet somewhere then go to skool together..so i replied i dont mind cuz later im meeting my mum at raffels for a while send some things that she had forgotten to bring..then he replied sumthing i cant remember what was it..

so when i was at the train platform, i messaged him that im waiting for the train & where does he want to meet..he dint reply..when i reached raffels i messaged him again..yet no reply from him..reached at my mums work place & gave her the papers that she forgotten to bring..then called him this time..dint answer..by around this time i was already fustrated at him & wondered why dint he answer my call or replied any of my messages....was worried for him too..yes..worried for him ok..so anyway, reached simei & called him again..still no answer..then when i reached skool, i called bashir & asked him where is he..he said he was already at the smoke free counseling 2nd session..then i asked if "my brother" is there with him..he said yes & i heard his voice somewhere at the back..then i was like...sighh...felt sad & angry at him...i mean why did he do this to me??

..went to cafe 1 & there they are..sitting at the bench just the 2 of em..then i asked him why dint he replied any of my messages & answered any of my calls?..& hes $10 000 answer was, "my prepaid was low" ok that i can understand..then i told him the least he could do was reject my call so that i know that hes still somewhere..& used bashir's phone to call me & at least tell me that they are gonna go for the counseling session..or not at least wait till i arrive in skool & we can go together..member dah takde jiwa lagi..i mean what the fuck right??? after that hes like cant answer me..so i just kept myself quiet..for the whole day i was thinking about this..the question is "WHY??"

..but my blood boils & feels like my heart was being pierced through a knife was when we were at library..4 of us, zaaq, saufi, fazli & me went to the library..with me no mood i was just followed them since i got no else to go..so the 3 of them wants to use the computer & theres no more chair so i sat on the floor & just leaned back against the wall..then his phone rang & he answered it..HE ANSWERED HIS PHONE & i dont know who called him..why he said his prepaid value was too low when wanted to answer my call but yet can answer i dont know the hell called him just now..ni macam member..i know that he got his own probs & he dont want to share about it cuz he dont want to create any problems for us all..that i can understand..but why did he do that to me??..and mind u guys, this is not the 1st time he did that to me...bueh byk...

now my darling is angry at me cuz i was chatting with her just now & i accidentally reffered her as "kau" out of fustration when i should say "you"..im sorry..messaged her just now that im so sorry of what i've said..terlepas cakap..then she said to forget about it cuz she dont like talk to people that feelin mad..nanti ade je tak kene..ok i admit that but yarh..only she makes me happy when im mad..& now shes mad at me cuz im mad??..sighhhh..i guess being angry just makes other angry as well huh?..well its all thanks to my friend whom i treat like a brother to me..& yet he did such things to me..thanks ah eh...

-Berambus... @-10:43 PM

Finch - Letters To You (acoustic)

Can't you see that i wanna be there with open arms

It's empty tonight and i'm all alone

Get me through this one

Do you notice i'm gone?

Where do you run to so far away?

I want you to know that I miss you I miss you so

I'm writing again these letters to you on much I know

But i'm not sleeping and you're not here

The thought stops my heart

Do you notice i'm gone?

Where do you run to so far?

I want you to know that I miss you I miss you so

.:.its almost 4am & i still cant sleep..well, just thought of putting this song in my blog since i got nothing better to do & still cant sleep..this song is for my naughty devil whose thorn is always sticking out..hehe..just want u to know that i miss u..

-Berambus... @-3:42 AM

..some stuff thats been happening..

..been quite a while since i did my entry..hmm..like theres no time for me to use the net any more..heh..but dats ok..nothing much is on the net these days..

so lets start from 23 march last thursday. the usual..went to skool..late to class the usual i think..haha..then went to the auditorium to see taufik batisah peform live at college east..zaaq & me got to watch at the best seat..hah..then we got to take pictures with him too..eat ur heart out crazy-taufik-maniac fans..bahahahahahahaa..we both signed up to a quit smiking programe dats in the skool..hmm..i want to stop but i dont want..cuz..hmm..i dunno..i dont feel like stopping yet i guess..yarh..so then went to class late & dint do the revison..right after that had a microcontroller phase test..sucks..understanding the language of a computer..seesh..makes my brain go "BOOM!" cant really do it..so yarh..ade gak copy..hehe..sikit je..i think..then chilled at cafe1 with amy & mariam..thats basically what happened on thursday..boring rite?..hmm..thats my lfe...what do u expect..nothing much..haha..

then on friday waited for mariam at the skools bus stop..then waited for amy..cuz they had their exam papers on that day..while waiting toilet calls for me lak..halamak..rosak kan gamba je..so i had to go first..then went straight to class for java script test..came in class & ms irene was like "why u come so late?? the test starts at 9 just now & ends at 11 u know or not?" now that i dint know..ingatkan start kol 10..bikin malu je..so then just sit at a computer & surf the net for a while till i messaged adam haziq cuz he was in skool alone..packed up my stuff, came down & looked for him..hes gonna be in the next intake which will be on the 2nd may..zaaq came in a bit later..dint go to class yet only to skool just to chill out with us..hmm..so then waited for amy & mariam at cafe1 & all of us went to amys house again..to chill there..heh..

at night was on the phone with her..haha..& she reminded me about april fools day..then it strucked me to make some annoying phone calls at around 2am..hehehehee..called loads of people..& only 6 victims picked it up..so i was like asking what were they doing at that time..the when they asked why did i called i said "APRIL FOOL! HAHA!" then hang up..bahahaa...im so mean..haha..well only when my thorns are out..hehe..

so woke up today with such a pain in my stomach..so ran straight to the toilet & let it all out..im talking about making chocolate cake of course..haha..went to the toilet a lot more time then the usual..hmm..food poisoning?..maybe..naah but im ok now..i think..anyways went to temasek poly to watch pentas 2006 'akar aku.' this years show is about malay forgotten where they came from. which i think is true..just take a look around & you can see all different types of malay people..makes me sick & most of the time ashame of myself seeing malay teens now with tatoos & piercing of ears, nose, lips even tongue..tindik kat mate skali kan best?? wonder what is up in their head now a days..sighh..melayu senang lupa..that is definitely true..ni ah melayu..haha..really like the way how fid & siddiq plays the show..haha..all sorts of idea to make the audiance laugh..& the dikir barat was cool..showing abit on how dikir barat now is like..hmm..yarh..surprisingly i saw hayat & imran too playing the awok-awok..kaau..tak pernah nampak org2 legend main dikir..so yarh at the end of the show, it was great..but not the best..the best is still i think last year pentas wayang..

..back stage most of them was in tears especially the SNT (sri nak tari) cuz its already the last year for the seniors..

..can say that this week is the best ever..cuz of some stuff i did for the 1st time..sighh..shes naughty & now im influenced being naughty like her..hmm..next week i think the word "i miss you" would be applied more in my head..

yup..thats definitely all for now..its already 3am & i cant sleep yet..maybe because my day isnt complete..hee..

..still missing you every single time im not with you..now that your on holiday & working, i would miss you even more..cuz im still dangerously in love with you..

-Berambus... @-1:29 AM