some camp huh?

the karate camp was changed from a 3 days to a 2 days camp all because most of them could not be there..only a total of 12 people turned up for the camp..even my dear could not overnight or come to the camp cuz of her dad..hmmph....but what bothers me the most is that zaaq, farouk & me had already planned to make a treasure hunt at night but that was also cancelled cuz he training schedule was changed again from the treasure hunt then karate training to training first then the hunt..what the heck..i've already knew that after the training, most of the guys are already too tired to play the game..so it was cancel..

..during the making of the hunt we actually made a 5 clues for each of the 2 teams..from 1 clue to another and so on and on..then the 2nd last clue we thaught of making it more intersting by asking the help of the security guard by asking the question to the teams & if its correct then give the last clue to the team..so we asked if he wants to help & explained to him whats about to happen..and the 1st thing he asked, "..ok..what the name & ic of the people?.." i looked at zaaq & rouk & all of us were blur..this guy is either "stupid", blur, was not listening to what did we were explaining just now or just need to fix his brain..so we explained to him again in fine details..then he said ok & agreed..then we told him that we would come back later & went around the skool to set up the clues..so after about 2 hours of setting up the clues all around the skool, i told zaaq to go back to the security guard cuz i feel that something is not right..so we went down from the business block & bumped with him on the 1st level..all three of us were stunned to see him not at his post..he was sayin something like we need to talk & be approved by the main security guard post..then i looked back at the clue in the envolope that we gave him to hold on..and 1 of them had already been torn opened..what the hell..then we went to ask the other security post which was at the car entrance post..we tell them the same thing that we told the other guy..but this time only more security guard..jawapan paling best skali..1 of the pakcik who were not wearing any security uniform smoking told us that why are we having a camp in the skool & who gave us permission to camp there..and also we need to show them a memo authorized by the skool if not we were asked to leave the skool..what the heck..lain org mintak tolong lain yang jadi..i wonder what type of world did the security guard in the night shift came from..now i would never look at the security guards in skool the same again..or maybe not even look at them at all..bloody hell..

..so neway, during the night can't really sleep..firstly cuz i was talking to my dear on the phone for about an hour or so..then tried to sleep but cant cuz creatures in the night kept on biting on my foot & making it itchy that i cant sleep..so just sat down on the stadium seats with zaaq & just talked about almost everything..was thinking & imagining that my dear is next to me..then along came farouk..dah jadi cam bujang lapok giler..haha..all of us talked bout some stuff..like how is it going to be in the future for us..how are we gonna be like when we are married to the ones we love & have kids..how many kids do we want stuff like that..then off to bed..the 3 of us slept close to each other & talked some more while everyone else was asleep..then farouk went snoring..haha..so left me & zaaq..i was about to sleep until he disturbed me in not going to sleep cuz he cant sleep..poking me & stuff..bodo..die nye pasal aku tak bole tido..since he had already disturbed & i cant sleep, so both of us tried to "sabo" who ever is asleep..both of us were thinking of carrying farouk's safari bed to the filed..& just see his reaction when he woke up later on..hahahaha..yea..can u just imagine that..it would be very funny..but his bed was not fixed properly & we scared that his bed would fold into half while we were carrying him..hahaha..so with that fail, we just put on colgate on him, syufhan, sani & some on black as well..haha..but syufhan got the worst..hahhaa...imagine waking up in the middle of the night & the 1st thing that u taste was colgate..already fresh aye?..haha

..hmm..i guess thats all the intersting things in the camp..now im off in calling my dear..

.:.come & lie your body next to mine & watch the stars with me..

..i'll hug you when your body feels cold & wisper sweet words in your ear to warm you up..

..come & lie your body next to mine & watch the moon with me..

..just like the first time i watched it with you before we were lovers..

..come & lie your body next to mine & watching out for a shooting star with me..

..we shall make a wish that we would be together for now, forever & for all eternity.:.

-Berambus... @-10:39 PM

..busy busy busy..

busy busy me..been busy lately for this week since i got a job..hehe..coffee bean at airport terminal 1..im a coffee guy! yea! heh..thanks to bobo that i got the job..yam tried to apply for it too but so sad that she dint get in..cuz they need people to work even after the holidays..too bad she cant..so anyway, i was suppose to start on last monday..not knowing that we have to bring our own black pants, i wore my blue jeans instead..so cant work with with blue jeans, i have to go back home with the uniform & to come back the next day..so this its already been 2 days of working..can only remember some of the drink of how to make it..but i will remember it all some how..just takes time..

hmm..im tired..dont know what else to update..so guess that will be all..yaawn..

.:.an unforgetable day it was..won't ever forget what happened..you were wonderful.:.

-Berambus... @-8:12 PM

not sleeping again/silent conversation

it's 3.35am & still i can't sleep..i don't know why..sighh..so many sleepless nights..so what might be this head with a pice of brain inside that i can't be sleeping??

..too worried?..
..about myself to where am i heading to..
..about my parents..
..about my dear..
..too happy?..
..about my reliationship with my dear..
..about my room that it's half way clean..
..too sad?..
..that i haven't seen, hug, touch or kiss my dear for days..
..about my parents..
..about my dear cuz of some stuff at her home..
..too angry?..
..that life is unfair..
..that my phone is being cut off totally & people can't contact me..
..that i don't have money..
..that i know i couldn't stop smoking..
..too fustrated?..
..that it's already been days i've been stuck at home..
..about my phone again..
..that i don't have any job..
..about myself at certain things maybe..
..that i can't sleep at night most of the time..
..confused?..
..about my parents again..
..things that i can't undersatnd..

..hmm..well i think thats about all the stuff in my head most of the time..

it's really weird to be on the phone & not saying anything at all..silent conversations? its where both of them don't know what to talk but still can't sleep..naah..but i don't mind..just knowing that i'll be there for that someone is good enough..yea it might be boring but u know that u are spending some time together with someone special..cuz of havent seen for days..

.."rindu"..
..makan tak kenyang..
..tido tak lena..
..mandi tak basah..
..kencing tak hancing..(haha!)

maybe abit of this song by selena could explain abit of why i can't sleep..

"Late at night when all the world is sleeping

I stay up late and think of you and I wish on a star

That somewhere you are thinking of me too

'Cause I'm dreaming of you tonight'

Til tomorrow I'll be holding you tight

And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be

Than here in my room dreaming about you and me"

.:.miss you every time when your not here with me..

..miss you even more when far away from me..really hope to see you again real soon..

(i din't get to say "i love you" after i said "good night" & you hang up).:.

-Berambus... @-3:15 AM

so may restless nights

wonder what's wrong with me..can't sleep well for the past few days. sleeping all day & staying up all night..hmm..but last night was the worst of them all..went to bed at around 3.30am & kept on tossing & turning on the bed till 7am..
..too much to think about some stuff?..
..do i feel that my day was not complete?..
..is there something missing?..
..or do i just missed that someones voice so much cuz before i sleep?

but then when i asleep, kept on having weird silly dreams..
..dremt that 1 of my teeth fell out..
..having $101 100 in cash in my wallet..($100 000, $1000 & $100 in separated notes)
..drinking orange liquor at a high class party..(felt so real dat i could even taste it & feeling high)
..smoking weed at school..(again felt high in the dream)
..wet dream..ermm..naahh..not really..not yet..heh..

..restless night & somany unpleasant weird dreams..

so let me see whats been up..vaccumed the house yesterday..then went out to bobo's house to pick up some of his stuff like he told me to & meet him at airport at 12am after his work..cuz hes sleeping over right after work..so went there..chilled for a while..took a bottle of starbucks mocca flavour in the fridge just before i got out at around 10pm..din't know that it was his dad's drink..oops..so just took my time going there. took the train from hougang cuz i din't felt like taking the bus..

..saw 2 cute babies with different parents on the way to tanah merah..a boy & a girl..hehe..the girl was in the prem & the boy was being carried by his parents..then the girl was like flirting with the boy..she almost kissed him on the lips & their parents was like "eyy eyy eyy..jangan! eeeep.." hahaha..so cute..at that time i was wondering some where in the future, what if i have a child..would i be a good father? hmmm...but now is not the time to think about all that...yet..

so anyway, i was at tanah merah waiting for the train & my phone rang..umi called me..hehe..so talked for a while..since now is a very hard time for me to send any message or call out..cuz my phone line was cut some where around last week..so now i can only accept incoming calls since it's free..sending web sms & stuff lyk dat..budget giler..sighh..the bill almost reached to $500..and i havent paid it for about 4 months i think..thats why im applying for coffee bean at airport..work there with bobo..hmm..should have accepted his offer last year when he asked me if i wanna work there or not. hopefully i can get the job as soon as possible..cuz i seriously in need of cash..my larling is also applying for the same job..since TRU are cutting down the hours..hmm..hehe..get to see more of her..but its strictly work ofcourse..

so reached at the airport at around 11.30pm & waited for bo..while waiting, don't know what else to do so went around the terminal 1..looking at some tourist with big luggage..stuff like that. went to the toilet..it's quite interesting really..in the cubical beside the toilet roll, theres this spray where u spray some on the toilet roll & wipe it at the toilet seat..a seat wiper..hmm..then theres also this little table on the top of the toilet roll which u can pull it down..i don't know what the hell is it for..if its for resting ur arm or do some last minute writing while u doing ur business..hmm..so then got out of the toilet & still bored waiting for bo to finish up his work..so called up my dear at the pay phone..during a call my finger would always miss behave as in it would be somewhere in my pocket, then on top of the phone, pressing the volume of the phone..then my finger went into the little hole where ur change would always be after u hang up..and i found 10 cents..then tried looking at the next pay phone and found another 10 cents..haha..yessah..can talk longer on the phone..hehe..

so then bo had finished his work & i got a free drink! heehee..took 27 back to tampines & walked home at the front of the library since theres no more bus in service..as we walked, we heared echo of singaporeans shouting as i know they were watching england vs. portugal..fifa feaver..so i joined in too (although im not a big fan of soccer)..joined in as in shouting "GOAAAL!" as we were walking..wahahahaa..take that soccer freaks..so reached home & the game was still on..
..bobo watched with my dad..
..now he got someone to talk with when watching soccer..
..if its not him then it's fid..
..both were shouting like crazy..
..i was there too but not watching the tv..but watching them screaming..haha..
..if its not fid then it would be my sis..(since when she likes watching soccer?)
..beckham injured..bobo cried..
..during the penalty shoot out, everyone starts to pray..
..england lost..they cried..
..bobo cried with them as well..

hmm..very intersting..me watching people being hypnotized or "sampuk" by the game..makes me laugh at them when they went like "goal..GOAL..GOAAAL! urghh..bodo..asal tak masok!?" well, its easier said then done..

..well i think i've write enough for 1 day..till next time then..

.:.he have no right to treat you like that..dosen't he know that? but that's ok..i'll always be treating you right. our love is still very dangerous..we're living our love life very dangerously..cuz im dangerously in love with you.:.

-Berambus... @-3:46 PM