...Tuesday, April 04, 2006...
..woke up late today..class starts at 10am but i woke up at 10am..haha..my mum called me that she was suppose to bring sumthing to work & she forgotten about it & asked for my help to send the papers to her work place at raffels..then i said ok..anak mane tak nak tolong mak sendiri kan? so later on got a message from "a brother" askin me where am i & to bring the smoke free appointment session for the 2nd visit later in the afternoon..so i replied back to him that im at home..then he replied back that hes also at home & he asked if wanna meet somewhere then go to skool together..so i replied i dont mind cuz later im meeting my mum at raffels for a while send some things that she had forgotten to bring..then he replied sumthing i cant remember what was it..
so when i was at the train platform, i messaged him that im waiting for the train & where does he want to meet..he dint reply..when i reached raffels i messaged him again..yet no reply from him..reached at my mums work place & gave her the papers that she forgotten to bring..then called him this time..dint answer..by around this time i was already fustrated at him & wondered why dint he answer my call or replied any of my messages....was worried for him too..yes..worried for him ok..so anyway, reached simei & called him again..still no answer..then when i reached skool, i called bashir & asked him where is he..he said he was already at the smoke free counseling 2nd session..then i asked if "my brother" is there with him..he said yes & i heard his voice somewhere at the back..then i was like...sighh...felt sad & angry at him...i mean why did he do this to me??
..went to cafe 1 & there they are..sitting at the bench just the 2 of em..then i asked him why dint he replied any of my messages & answered any of my calls?..& hes $10 000 answer was, "my prepaid was low" ok that i can understand..then i told him the least he could do was reject my call so that i know that hes still somewhere..& used bashir's phone to call me & at least tell me that they are gonna go for the counseling session..or not at least wait till i arrive in skool & we can go together..member dah takde jiwa lagi..i mean what the fuck right??? after that hes like cant answer me..so i just kept myself quiet..for the whole day i was thinking about this..the question is "WHY??"
..but my blood boils & feels like my heart was being pierced through a knife was when we were at library..4 of us, zaaq, saufi, fazli & me went to the library..with me no mood i was just followed them since i got no else to go..so the 3 of them wants to use the computer & theres no more chair so i sat on the floor & just leaned back against the wall..then his phone rang & he answered it..HE ANSWERED HIS PHONE & i dont know who called him..why he said his prepaid value was too low when wanted to answer my call but yet can answer i dont know the hell called him just now..ni macam member..i know that he got his own probs & he dont want to share about it cuz he dont want to create any problems for us all..that i can understand..but why did he do that to me??..and mind u guys, this is not the 1st time he did that to me...bueh byk...
now my darling is angry at me cuz i was chatting with her just now & i accidentally reffered her as "kau" out of fustration when i should say "you"..im sorry..messaged her just now that im so sorry of what i've said..terlepas cakap..then she said to forget about it cuz she dont like talk to people that feelin mad..nanti ade je tak kene..ok i admit that but yarh..only she makes me happy when im mad..& now shes mad at me cuz im mad??..sighhhh..i guess being angry just makes other angry as well huh?..well its all thanks to my friend whom i treat like a brother to me..& yet he did such things to me..thanks ah eh...
